October 31st, 2007
|06:57 pm - Im leaving on a jet plane|
I booked my flights today to london. Or should i say flight, as it is one way. The idea of a one way plane ticket is rather ominous. Like...will i ever return? Who the hell cares. I have been here for 11 years, it is SO time to move on.
Im so excited coz im spending two weeks in australia before i leave and even though i have been 3 hours plane ride away from it, ive never been. Im going to sydney and brisbane, its going to be so awesome. And i get to see my dad for the first time in two years.
And i payed all my fees for camp america so hopefully i will be at wazi next year. Its so cool that i actually have a plan. Whereas before i was just kind of panicking over graduating and having no idea what to do. This way i can just have fun for the next year or so. Apart from that pesky need to work and make money.
Apart from that it should be all good. Yay, im happy!
Current Mood: excited
October 24th, 2007
|06:39 pm - 20 minutes till i can go home|
I am feeling like a zombie.
The person i work with in this wonderous library is called Bella. That isnt her real name, but it does suit her because she is beautiful. I try to not be jealous about this, and its quite easy as she isnt very intellectual. So i have that over her. Then i feel bad for thinking that.
When i work with Bella i can say anything and it will never leave the building. This is because she doesnt listen to me. She is living in her own beautiful world full of rainbows and butterflies and champagne waterfalls. This makes her is a good secret keeper. Even though her continous happiness is irritating, i do like her. Underneath her perfect exterior, im sure she is as screwed up as the rest of us.
At least, this is what i hope. Or life would truely suck.
October 18th, 2007
|06:07 pm - Damn (I forgot to buy shampoo again)|
I think that subject title sounds like a song title. Something buy fall out boy or the red jumpsuit apparatus. some band whose uses wierd phrases and questionable punctuation.
Today, i took a picture of my face into photoshop. And i cut it in half and then made two symmetrical faces from each side. Hilarity was immediate. One face made me look like alien april, with these huge spread apart eyes and tiny mouth, with this pinched face.
And the other face looked pretty damn hot. And unrecognisable as me(go figure). Unfortuantly, it also looked like a guy.
So...if half my face is alien and the other half is some hot male, that would really explain alot of issues i have :)
(has anyone read this?)
Current Mood: amused
September 17th, 2007
|02:37 pm - my mind is blank|
Urgh. Ive really been getting into yoga lately. Its awesomely fun. Um...okay not awesomely but it is challenging and stretchy. I just wanted to twist myself into a pretzel and feel the union of body and muind and all that.
My entire fasmily leave for england in a couple of weeks. Its strange to think that in a few days i will be completely alone on this little island. I cant just pick up the phone and complain about my noisy neighbours or fly a couple of hours to see them in the holidays. I will truely be alone for the first time in 10 years.
This doesnt really worry me. im pretty independant and the fact that they are actually in england will be kind of excititng. It will definately spur me on to save money until next year.
On a side note: man im hungry. All this saving is making me poor and under-norished.
Neh...so bored right now.
Current Mood: bored
September 12th, 2007
|03:44 pm - Censor me baby|
I was researching for my censorship essay (yawn) and came across this cool little thing that censors your website or blog. Apparently I have an R for restricted for using the words "fucking" "death" and "sexy". Which i think is pretty funny.
Click this if you want to censor your life.
September 6th, 2007
|06:27 pm - Wazi return?|
I may have done something which I will regret. but I decided to go for it anyway.
I applied for camp America next year and ticked the "going to the same camp" box. I find that is a rather presumptuous box to tick as I have no idea if the wazi people even remember me, let alone want me back. I have been thinking alot about it over he last couple of weeks ad I can think of a few reasons not to re-hire me:
1: The time I did a "splatter art" class and it turned into a rolling down the hill/paint fight. And then we all had to run into the girls bathroom coz we were covered in acrylic.
2: The time I decided it was too hot for photography and we had a huge waterbomb fight instead. That was fun, and hey, we did take pictures.
3: The fact that on my first session feedback card i was told that i never smile and dont interact with the campers. Hmmm...that was first session though, im telling you, those ledge girls were hard to talk to.
4: When i made a welcome sigh for twone and the spraypaint soacked through to the cabin walls. Oh, that was a sight to see. Kept the sign drying in the wind and when it was taken down the same sign was just plastered all over the wooden planks. Mohahaha.
Argh. Anyway, if they say No Thanks, or another less polite turndown, i dont want to go to another camp. It will feel disloyal somehow. And there will always be this compare/contrast thing going on. also, i MISS wazi. Even though its been like 4 years, and i wasnt like happy ALL the time, i just so want to go back.
So i guess i will just let it go and see what happens. there is no need to compulsively check my email. No need.
Current Location: work
Current Mood: anxious
August 21st, 2007
|06:39 pm - Like duh!|
So its official: my family minus my brother is moving to england. In 6 weeks. How do i feel about this? I really dont care, apart from the fact that they are leaving the dog behind who i believe is more apart of the family then my brother. My mum got all teary when she phoned the other night and was practically begging me to move with them. I think she is getting belated empty-nest-syndrome slash pre-menopausal. So i said uh.... and left it at that.
I mean sure, i have never been on the london eye, really loved Euro disney and miss inteluctual conversations and thatched roofed pubs at christmastime, but i feel that if i move BACk to engoand i will be stuck there for the rest of my life. and my mum was like "you cant just wander forever, you need a proper job to sustain yourself" and i said why the hell cant i just wander the earth? thast what i want to do. i want to just be a bum working my way around the planet. I dont wqant the power suit and the weekend country house and the identical twins and the cute little dog. Okay, i want the dog, and possibly the twins, but apart from that i just want to be free baby!
Uh...so much to think of, so little brain power to think with.
August 8th, 2007
|06:44 pm - Things i fucking hate right now|
1: my friends telling me all there goddamn love life woes then telling me how "lucky" i am not to be burdened with a boyfriend. Like, fuck you guys, i WANT a fucking boyfriend
2: people asking me what im going to "do next year" Like ive even fucking thought about it. Like thats such a goddamn scary thought that im hiding it away in the nether regions of my brain. Like who FUCKING CARES. im going to waste my goddamn life, i dont need a FUCKING CAREER!!!!
Yes, im in an angry mood tonight.
Current Mood: angry
August 6th, 2007
|03:37 pm - Between the spaces lies madness|
Softly Haunted After nightly Encounters. So Horrible And Near Excitement. SHhhh April, Never Exhale. Scarlet Heart Appreciates Needful Extentialism. Some Hardships Are Not Envisioned.
July 30th, 2007
Is that how you spell psychotic? I have started stalking someone. Seriously. I have actually started stalking them. It has become an obsession of mine. I have had this crazy crush on this guy for a while, and after finding out what car he had, i walked down his street till i saw it in a driveway. I am sure, even though it is impossible, that he knows i am stalking him. It is quite incredibly moronic really. Every minute of the day my mind is fringed with thoughts of him. I dont even know him and i cant stop obsessing. Im scared for my sanity, but im enjoying it at the same time too. What is wrong with me?